Taking care of Leah, means also taking care of mommy!

I need to remind myself of that....

I went to work yesterday... and regretted it all day. Around 1 oclock, I started getting horrible dizzy spells. The only way I can think to put how I felt was to remind you of when you are super drunk and the room spins when you close your eyes... except I didnt need to close my eyes, and I wasnt drunk! People may of thought I was... I could barely stand straight when I was up!

The only thing I can think it can be is complete exhaustion on top of having a cold. Thinking back, I have pretty much had about 3 hrs of sleep a night, and then up every hour, since last Thursdsay night. I have a tendency of feeling pretty sick to my stomach when I was super sleepy ... so sleep deprivation must make me feel dizzy.

I made it all day at work, only for the fact that I didnt think I could even drive my car home with the way I was feeling all afternoon. I had a soda though and felt slightly better when 4 oclock rolled around... I could also have felt a little better because it was time to go home!

My mom, who seriously tried to talk me into staying home yesterday (she was funny... she tried to keep me on the phone so that I couldnt get in the shower!), kept reminding me "Taking care of Leah also means taking care of yourself." So I called my father n law, who happened to be at my house while we got a new water heater installed, and asked him to stay and maybe watch Leah until Brian got home while I passed out!

I had all intentions of "Taking care of myself" until I picked up Leah, got home, and heard her horrible, raspy cry! Rather than getting better, she suddenly is more sick than ever! I couldnt let her go, and told Larry he could go home. I quickly forgot how horrible I was feeling, and just wanted to care for her.

Even when Brian came home, I barely put her down. She just sounded so horrible, wheezing at times, making strange sounds, sleeping on and off, and just plain fussy. I finally got her to "sleep" around 8 oclock. I say "sleep" because she hasnt slept thru the night in almost a week now, and barely slept more than 3 hours straight before she wakes up coughing, and wants her binkie to calm her back down.

Brian was a sweet heart though... I fell asleep by 8:30, and Brian said he would take care of Leah while I tried to get some good sleep to feel better... but here I am, up again at midnight, unable to sleep because my throat is hurting so much...

I AM staying home today though... I cant let myself get completely run down... but I will be taking Leah to the doctor again... first thing in the morning. Hopefully the rest of the day we can just cuddle and lay in bed all day!

I will let you know how it goes...

ugg

Its 12:22 AM and I am up.....

not bc Leah is having a hard time breathing and I need to suck her nose out....

its me that is sick now!

I caught whatever Leah had!

My throat is killing me... it hurts to swallow.

it breaks my heart knowing Leah felt this way!

I just took some expired Dayquil (Yes it expired Aug 08!... oh well... I couldnt find Nyquil....). I really hope it kicks in SOON!

... or I will be the one staying home tomorrow!

Jumperoo!

I just ordered Leah this for her 3 month birthday!!!!

Three months is the magical age where she can start playing with all the fun things!! Is it horrible that I am SOO excited for her to turn 3 months?!

Stay tuned to see how much she loves it!

... so I am so excited for her to turn 3 months, but 4 month is scary.... 4 months she can start trying to sit up... maybe (but she is already so strong, I dont see how it could take her much longer), and we will be discussing her eating solids at her next check up!! That is only 6 weeks away! I am not sure if I am ready for my baby girl to be that grown up yet!

exhausted

Its Sunday night, I am exhausted and I am NOT ready to go back to work!

Leah is feeling better... but Mommy is more tired than ever.

I had forgotten what is was like to get up multiple times thru the night... Leah has never slept as horribly as she has the past few nights with being sick... Last night I saw 3:00 am, 4:00am, 5:00am, 6:00am, 7:00 am... and then was up for the day at 8:30. Brian even got up a few times with her too!! I really hope she sleeps better tonight!

It was another successful week on weight watchers... lost another 1.9 lbs.... total = 6.3!!!... in 2 weeks! WHOOOHOOO!....

I made some yummy super bowl, party, weight watcher food, but im too tired to write them out.... email me if u want the recipes!

well im tired of typing one handed... its time to put leah to bed... and then myself!! good night!

Poor Baby!

Leah is sick!!

Last night, Thursday night, Leah woke both Brian and I with her coughing. The first time I went into check on her, heat was radiating from her and I knew she had to have a fever... 101.4 to be exact. I gave her some tylenol and a binkie and put her back to sleep. I admit that I just wanted to sit and rock her all night long!.. she awoke a few more times during the night but easily fell back to sleep with her binkie.

In the morning, I gave her some more tylenol and Brian took her to daycare. I didnt keep her home initially because the tylenol was taking care of her fever and I did not know if the doctor would want me to bring her....

I was only at work for an hour before the Dr called me back and told me to bring her in right away. I felt horrible then that I sent her to daycare, and I wasnt with her. I bawled to my boss (Im so glad she is a woman with 3 kids and understands being a first time mom!)... I quickly left work, and headed to daycare.

When I got there, she was asleep.... even still in her car seat! They said that she came in and was asleep and Brian asked if they would just keep her in there for a bit.... well almost 2 hours later, she was still in there asleep.... this is not like her at all which made me feel even worse.

She stayed asleep until we saw the doctor almost an hour later! Let me mention, this whole time, she was going on almost 6 hours with only eating 3 oz! Poor thing!

Turns out she just has a bad cold.... but at her age, anytime there is a fever and cough, they worry about pnenomia (how on earth do you spell that!?!). She sounds good, but we are supposed to watch out for her starting to wheeze at all or if the Tylenol stops keeping her fever down.

Even though its just a cold... it breaks my heart to see her this way!! My mom keeps telling me that parents hurt more than their kids sometimes, and its definitely true!! ...Leah is definitely not her usual self! She has only been awake for a total of about 4 hours so far today... just enough to eat, play for 20 minutes, and then she falls back to sleep. ... Hopefully she is better tomorrow.... I know this sleep is good for her!

Its definitely been a rough week with daycare and now her being sick.... I am so glad its over and we have the weekend to try and recover before having to do it all again... hopefully week 2 will be a bit better!

Day 2

I still hate daycare...

Today leah took 5 naps... all ranging from 10 to 30 minutes long....

She stayed up when we got home... but was down for the night at 745.  I can't imagine how tired she is!

Daycare is throwing off her eating as well!  She only had 2 bottles while she was there!  I am sure she is just so distracted by everything that she doesn't realize she's hungry and wants a bottle...

I think both leah and I need to get used to daycare... I just hope its sooner rather than later!!!

I hate daycare!!

I really hate it!

I went with Brian to drop her off this morning and I of course bawled my eyes out!

All I could think as we left was "I dont know these people!!" "I just handed my precious baby girl's life over to these strangers!"

4:00 did not come soon enough.... I hurried to get her, and just got more upset....

I am given a piece of paper to tell me how her day was... just a paper telling me when she ate, slept, and had her diaper changed.

Then there is the sleeping.... Leah is a baby that loves to be swaddled.... that is how I get her to sleep thru the night.... well guess what, the State of Missouri frowns upon swaddling a baby, so they dont at all! Leah does not yet sleep laying down with a blanket thrown over her.... which is why she had a total of 4, 15-20 minute naps!!!

Leah slept a total of a little over an hour all day! Of course this results in her getting home and instantly falling asleep .... which is why I am writing this instead of playing with my little girl! I will be surprised if Brian gets to see her up at all night! I am hoping I can get an hour or so nap out of her so she will be up for a little bit night before she is down for the count tonight....

I am so sad...... I hate that she has to go there....

I HATE DAYCARE!