I am having major working mom guilt this month.
Brian will be out of town for work from the 16th-23rd. Over a weekend.
I will be out of town for work the 22nd - 23rd.
We are both abandoning our baby for a night! It breaks my heart!
Then the following week I am out of town again for a exam seminar (Math Camp) from Wed to Sunday night.
Another weekend together missed.
Since becoming a working mom, I truely cherish my weekends and free time to spend with my little family. It breaks my heart to know that we will be missing out on 2 weekends together this month.
My mom will probably watch her while we are both out. Brian plans to stay at his parents while I am out so that they can help watch Leah while he works late (Stupid Tax season!), and on Saturday morning (Again stupid tax season!). But I cant help but to feel like we are being horrible parents... I know she will be taken care of. Her grandparents will LOVE the time with her, and she LOVES being with them.
But part of me cant help to think of myself as those awful parents in movies, who work too much, and are never around to get to know their kids. That often think work is more important than spending time with their families...
I try to live by the motto of "You work to live, not live to work." but at the moment I feel like work is controlling our lives!
Stupid work responsibilities...