Monday, November 29, 2010
Part 1 - Childhood
Part 2 - Love and Family (getting married and starting a family)
Part 3 - Career
I am about to begin my new career, and I honestly thought I would be freaking out about it a little more. I still have the thoughts in my head like "What if its super super hard and I fail miserably?" Honestly, I dont think I have ever been tested mentally (besides my exams) and I think I am about to be. School was not a challenge at all and my old job was easy-peazy. Add in the fact that I have always been one of the top people (school, sports, work) and here I am about to enter a place where everyone is as smart as me, if not more. When I went out to lunch on my interview, one of the guys had a law degree, and the other had an engineering degree. Its intimidating. ... But I honestly am ready to challenge myself. See what I am really worth.
I should today, but today wsa my grandmother's funeral. I guess her funeral is the reason why my freak-out has been put on the back burner. Plus, I already adore my boss. Before even starting I had to call him. The first conversation went a little like this:
Me: Hi Chris, this is Kim Gilmore!
Chris: Hiiiiiiiiiii Kim!!
Me: So............... I havent even started, and I already need time off.
He is already acting like the ideal boss! He is completely understanding and I will begin Tuesday! He said that whatever I needed, we would work with. He totally could have been a jerk, given me some attitude, but he didnt! He made a great first impression. He makes me realize that I will have great, friendly people around me, and I can do this!
Plus my friend Jania started today as planned and she said her first day went great!! I hope I get to say the same!!
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Uh, she loves it! I could not get the tooth brush away from her! Last night as I was putting her in the bath she spotted her pink and purple toothbrush on the sink and started freaking out over it.
Dont worry, I did grab it once and give them a good scrub for her.
Beautiful teeth here we come!
The other day I was feeding her yoguart when I put it down for a second and went to do something. The next thing I know she has grabbed the yoguart cup and is feeding herself!
Then she is sitting on my lap as I work on the computer and I look down and she has scribbled all over my paper with a pen!
And today I was reading her the book "Sooo Big" and every time I read the words "Sooo Big" she was putting her arms up in the typical "Sooo Big" motion!
When did my BABY pick all this up?!! I know I have said this over and over again, but she is seriously becoming a little kid overnight!
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Tuesday night, as Leah and I waited for Brian to get home so we could start packing for our trip, I was watching the news. The news is usually on, but with a baby, its hard to actually pay attention to anything on TV. All of a sudden I heard ..."accident in Barnhart." I immediately looked up at the screen, saw an intersection that I am very familiar with, and then recognized the damaged car. It was my grandmother's car. My heart started to beat faster. I felt sick to my stomach. I tried to get my phone to turn on but it was too dead. At that instant Brian walked in the door.
Me: "Let me have your phone!"
Me: "There was an accident on TV and I just know its my grandma's car."
Brian: "She has a pretty common car.."
Me: "I just know its her!"
I dialed her house phone and she didnt answer.
I called my parents house. As soon as my mom answered the phone I knew something was wrong. I could hear it in her voice. My mom did not tell me much... just that it was my grandmother. She was waiting for my dad to come home. She couldnt tell him the news over the phone, and she needed to tell him everything first. My mom did not need to tell me anything else... I knew the outcome... I knew my grandmother, the woman who watched me thru-out my childhood, that was at every single sporting event of mine, at every graduation, and at the birth of Leah... died in that accident.
I was just in shock Tuesday night... She was just at my house a week ago for Leah's birthday party... She wasnt sick. If that was the case, we could have prepared ourself for the loss. We werent expecting this. She was just gone.
Wednesday, everything really began to sink in. All the wonderful, amazing memories started to flow back to me and the realization that there would be no more new ones hit like a ton of bricks. I was completely heart broken.
Growing up, she was my babysitter. One of my very first memories is her pushing my in a stroller thru my neighborhood and pointing out the trees. She eventually watched my little sister as well, and was there every morning before school and evening when we came home. My sibilings and I were all old enough to attend school, but she would come over to make sure we made it to school OK since my parents would leave earlier for work. From the day I started sports to my last game she was ALWAYS there. She was always there not just for me, but also for all of my siblings games, and my cousins games, and even for my teammates. Once news hit facebook of my grandmother's death I received such amazing messages, from past teammates, on how supportive she was and how they also remember her always being there. I havent played an organized game in 8 years, and its amazing that even others remember her presence. When I went away to college and after I graduated she would send weekly cards filled with newspaper clippings, coupons, and jokes. Our family used to joke about this mail that all the grandchildren received, which was always recognized with the bajillion stickers on the envelope. But now the thought of them just makes me cry because I know we will never receive another one.
My grandmother was amazing. She valued family more than anything. I always felt like her favorite... and I will fight anyone to prove it... but truly, I am sure each of her 9 grandchildren and 4 (+ 1 on the way) great grandchildren felt that way. Even far distant cousins received the same respect and love as her own immediate family. We were all connected somehow, and that was all that mattered.
Although she was taken quickly, unexpectantly, her life was far from unfullfilled. She travelled the world, multiple times over. At 80+ years old she went to China and India and even had a trip to Libia planned. She loved a good road trip. Every summer her and my aunt would drive all over the country to visit the family she loved so much. She loved her car and her freedom and although it is so tradgic that her life was taken in an awful accident, it is almost poetic as she loved the freedom her car gave her. I am sure it was one of her favorite places/things.
As much as I want to celebrate her amazing life, its so hard to know that she will not be there phyiscally for the next big event. I can clearly remember her telling me not to be sad when my grandfather and aunt passed away because they have gone to a better place... I know that she is telling me this same thing right now. I need to remember to celebrate her life, rather than greif her loss.... but it is a life I already miss...
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
I almost always order my cards thru Shutterfly. I just sent out Halloween cards with Leah in her pumpkin costume and I definitely plan to order our Christmas cards thru them. I LOVE photo cards and I doubt I will ever stop sending them.... well maybe when we are old and our kids are like 40.... I am not sure people will want to see a picture of Brian and I in our 60/70s.
Shutterfly is doing a fantastic promotion for their new christmas cards where bloggers can get 50 FREE cards!! I cannot wait to decide on a family photo and design our cards!! Since I will be getting 50 for FREE I might just end up sending cards to every single person I know!!!
There are over 803 to choose from!! I have no idea how I will ever decide!
I love this one: http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/cards-stationery/holiday-love-sketch-christmas-5x7-folded-card?sortType=1&storeNode=93496
And this one: http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/cards-stationery/pop-art-ornaments-christmas-4x8-photo-card-4x8-photo?sortType=1&storeNode=93496
OMG, or this one!: http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/cards-stationery/swirling-ornaments-christmas-card-5x7-flat?sortType=1&storeNode=93496
Gosh I am not even a 10th of the way thru them! This will be hard...
You can check them out, order your own, and/or help me decide by going here: http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/christmas-photo-cards or here for holiday cards: http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/holiday-cards
And if I am feeling really productive, I have been wanting to make some calendars for family members: http://www.shutterfly.com/calendars
Eeee! I just cant wait to get started on our cards for this year!!!!!
Monday, November 22, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
- Leah is ONE YEAR OLD! She is officially a little person.
- Daycare took away her morning nap..... I gave it back to her today!
- Leah is also a cot sleeper now....
- I have a parent-teacher conference on the 1st... yes, for my ONE YEAR OLD!
- I am officially unemployed.... for the next week. I am sure there will be a post/freak out sometime in the next week about starting a new job.
- I am 1/2 way done with my christmas shopping and I havent even set foot in a store to buy any of it! ... yes, this is what I did my last week of work. Short Timers disease is rough!
- I have the most amazing gift idea for Brian! I can't wait to get to work on it, and to give it to him... I hate that I will have to wait to share on here what it is. My husband does read this at times.
- Titanic is on TV, and I must watch it.
- OHHH BSB and New Kids on the Block are touring together and I must attend! They are even performing together tomorrow night on some awards show! I will be watching! I love the memories those
boysmen bring back to me.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
I did get some sleep that night because I woke up the next morning feeling a million times better! Leah was finally beginning to get a hold of breastfeeding, my epidural and IV were finally removed, I got out of bed, and I was able to take a shower!! That night even more visitors came to meet Miss Leah.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
I believe the delivery was scheduled for 4:30 and we were to arrive at 2:30. The drive was exciting. The walk into the hospital doors was even more exciting. When we left there, it would be with a baby! We checked in, were taken to a room where I got in my gown and they started preping me for surgery. I was strapped up to all the equipment, and 4 attempts to get my IV in. That was seriously the most pain I felt the entire time! (I know most women will probably smack me for saying that!)
Our delivery time was pushed back an hour as other mom's to be needed emerceny c-sections. The wait in our room was LONG and nerve racking. We would have never made waiting around for a normal delivery! Brian was antsy and I was getting nervous! A resident eventually came in and asked if I was feeling OK. I said yes... and she went on to tell me that I was having some pretty good contractions. I just thought it was nerves! I think I will always wonder if we didnt have the c-section scheduled if Leah would have came that night on her own.
While waiting around, Brian decided to go to the waiting room and check to see if our family was there. As he walked in, my mother was also walking in at the same time and freaked out thinking Brian was coming out to say she was born! Brian said her reaction was priceless and knowing my mom it probably made alot of people giggle!
Eventually we got the OK that it was our turn for the O.R. and the anestiologist came in to give me the epidural. I always heard that this was supposed to be painful. I kept tensing up to expect great pain, but all it felt like was a flu shot in my back! I think the pain comes from being in real labor, going thru contractions, and trying to sit still.... when you are pretty much labor free, it felt like nothing. It was the weirdest feeling EVER having your legs go numb!!
First our moms came in, 2 at a time. I moment my mom and Brian's mom walked around the curtain and caught a glimpse of their first grand baby was so exciting. There was so much joy in the air! Our dads, Brian's sister, my grandma and my uncle Keith were all there waiting to see the new addition. Leah had quite the welcoming.
Monday, November 15, 2010
My official due date.
I can’t help to think “Today should have been Leah’s birthday” and I am sure I will every year.
Leah was already showing her personality. She wanted to do things her way. She wanted her momma to learn some patience. She wanted to hang on a little longer.
It has been an amazing year.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Leah napped wonderfully before the big event! I was so pleased! She was well rested and I got everything done! Our guests arrived, they visited, they ate, they commented on how yummy our "HOT" sandwiches tasted cold, we opened presents, Leah was completely spoiled, Leah ate and destroyed her cake, she was put in the tub and cleaned off, and then she played in her birthday suit and princess crown!
I dont think it could have been better! I loved having everyone celebrate in the life of my beautiful daughter! I cant wait to celebrate it over and over again!
And now for the pictures...