so unproductive

I am just too tired lately to do anything!

I had all intent to clean the house and study today, but I only got around to cleaning 2 bathrooms and doing laundry. I am just way too sleepy!

I have also noticed this past week that my pants are definitely tighter. I hadnt even noticed that I was gravitating to my bigger work pants until I hadn't done laundry and only had my smaller sized pants left. I went to put them on... they buttoned... but HURT! Luckily I picked up a bella band on clearance so I can still wear all of my clothes. I do need to start shopping though. I want to be prepared to wake up and really not fit into anything. Plus I already know I will have a hard time shopping for pants for work. I have a friend that is 5'7 and pregnant and has a hard time... and I am 3 and a half inches taller! I need to just start looking now. My mom thinks I might just have to wear dresses every day to work! ha! Luckily I will be pregnant thru out the sundress season and fall! .... But I honestly am too tired and lazy to even get up and go shopping!

Only one more week until my doctors appointment! I cant wait! It will feel so much more official!

M&Ms

I officially lost count .... it was a rough week. I feel like my morning sickness has gotten 3 times worse!

I also decided that the weekend goes way too fast when all I do is nap all day! ... but naps just feel so nice lately... I can fall asleep so quickly!

My taste/sense of food has changed to much! I used to be a chocolate - sweets lover... but I honestly haven't had a piece of chocolate in the last month.... until today. I never have cared for plain M & Ms... I would eats tons of the Peanut ones... but I always left the plain ones alone. Today at Toast Masters I was given a little pack..... for some reason the more I looked at them the greater they sounded. I finally decided to try a few.... they were AMAZING!!! They have never tasted so good to me!! I think I will have to hit up to store tomorrow and get a whole giant bag!!

4 & 5

I have thrown up now twice more... during work hours!

Monday I was walking to the bathroom around 9 am and I burped. Recently my burbs have kind of tasted like sushi, which seems to really gross me out. When I got to the bathroom, I puked.

Tuesday, was kind of my own fault. I tried to eat the pasta bar at work for lunch. It just looked and sounded good. I ate way too much and it was the heaviest thing I have eaten in weeks. As soon as I was done, I just new it was going to come back. I ended driving to my parents really fast for lunch and getting sick there rather than work. Work still does not know, and I do not want to explain when I am throwing up, but really I am ok.

Oh pregnancy is such a joy!

exhausting!

The wedding went great!

My sister-n-law is now married, Brian has a new Brother-n-law,

and we are now a aunt and uncle to a 11 year old boy!

The day was EXHAUSTING though!

I first work up at 5:30 am because I had to go to the bathroom and morning sickness

was kicking in. At 8:45, we left to get our hair done.

By noon we were back at the house to get our make up on and get dressed.

We were at the church by a little after 2... married at 3... and in the limo by 430.

We took pictures and drove around until 6:45, and then the reception began at 7.

I was done by 10. I was SOOOOOO tired, my stomach was doing somersaults and my body hurt from my dress and my corset. (I have been so bloated, it was the only way I fit into my dress, and it was still tight!)

After almost 10 hours of sleep in the wonderful hotel bed, I still came home and took a 2 hour nap. I could of kept sleeping, but the cat woke me up! He likes to get in my face and make sure I am breathing!

My diet this weekend has continued to consist of the same sorts of food.

Friday I ate a salad for lunch and subway for dinner.

Saturday was pretty much pretzel sticks all day, a little sub sandwich for lunch, and I ate a little of the dinner... mostly the salad, bread, and noodles in a white sauce.

Today I again had a subway sandwich, and Brian is now BBQing... hopefully I can eat dinner.

Brian sent me to the grocery store by myself today... I think it was a mistake. I only bought food that sounded good to me... which wasn't much. Brian noticed as soon as I walked in the door with only a few bags. I did buy TONS of fruit though. I am usually not a fruit person, but I did get apples, bananas, pineapple, and canelope. I can't wait to eat them this week for breakfast and lunch. I did think of the husband some.. I bought him multiple pizzas for the nights that I dont want anything he wants for dinner and he can still eat!

no eggs please

I just upped the count to 3.



I thought eggs would be a good idea for breakfast... they are plain...
My friend Ashley ate them daily when she was pregnant... I guess I wont be.
20 minutes after eating them, they came back up... darn it!



I am off today for the wedding festivities!
I am going to try and just nap ALL DAY and build up my energy for the VERY long day tomorrow!



I also figured I would also add a picture ... This is my 5th week picture...
Of course there is nothing yet... but it will be a nice starting point.

yuck

Throw up count is now at 2.... and could easily go up tonight...

I think I am feeling the worst yet!! Is it bed time yet?

I started thinking... The monday before I took the test, I was up early, studying while walking on the treadmill and I started to feel really nauseous. I had been doing this every day.. I thought it was weird. I never felt this way. Then I came back home, started to get dressed, ate breakfast, and I threw up. I didn't think too much about it... maybe I was just getting sick. Brian said he knew I was pregnant then. He was expecting me to come home that night and tell him. It never really entered my mind. Was the morning sickness symptoms really already kicking in!?

ugg

Morning sickness (if thats what you wanna call it) is definitely kicking my butt!

The only way I can explain it is that I feel CONSTANTLY hungover!

I just have that exhausted, stomach doesn't feel right, headache,... feeling.

I keep thinking "Am I really pregnant?...

Is this just going to go away?

Maybe I should take another test just to make sure I still am."

I wish my doctors appointment wasn't so far away!

April 6th seems like a life time!

I guess I will be beginning my 9th weeks then, they told me not to come in until I was 8 weeks. Is there not blood test to make sure I wasn't lying or that I read it correctly?

I can only think that the home tests are so accurate now that if it told me yes... than yes I am.

I need to stop reassuring myself too because I have the symptoms!

Isn't that enough?

... Brian is coming to the appointment with me and I can't wait!

It makes me tear up thinking about it right now! ha!

I think it will just make it that much more real for the both of us!

I also can't wait for my appointment so I can really let the cat out of the bag and I can maybe turn this on public!

It really stinks not telling anyone our big news!

Yesterday at work a co-worker asked "And when are you going to have kids?"

I wanted to shout "NOW!" but instead I just shrugged and said someday... as in 8 months from now! :)

Spreading the news...

We are spreading the news to the most important people in our lives atleast....

Yesterday at lunch I went out and bought Brian a baby mizzou outfit and a few "I love daddy" items to tell him the good news.... It kind of worked out perfect, when he came home from work, he told me how one of our friends is having a baby, and I said "Well, I have a gift for you, but sit down first." He says he knew right away when I told him I had something for him. He seemed completely thrilled, shocked, and nervous all at the same time. It is exactly how I felt!

I guess the whole pregnancy symptoms are beginning to kick my butt! Yesterday I was EXHAUSTED! I was in bed by 7:45 on a Friday night! I also had a miserable headache all day... It could be from my new lack of caffeine. This morning I am up at 4:30 (I guess its what I get for going to bed so early!) and I am feeling super nauseous! ... boo for multiple more weeks of feeling like this!!

We are going to tell our parents today... We want to tell them before the wedding next weekend when it might be obvious that I am not drinking at all, but we have a hotel room to stay the night! ha! I bought little grandma and grandpa bibs to tell them... I can't wait to give them to them! I can't wait to tell them!! They will be the best grandparents ever!

My brother's birthday is also coming up and I thought of the idea of telling them by sending him a few "uncle" things in the mail. I wish I could be there to see them open it and put two and two together! I will be sure to have my phone by me to get their phone call!

AHHHHHH

I woke up today thinking today was the day! I didnt want to get my hopes up, so I waited until today to take a pregnancy test! It immediately turned to "pregnant". I had to do a double check! Was I really pregnant!?!?!?

It has been about a half hour and I can't stop shaking! I am happy, excited, nervous, scared, ... every emotion all at once!

I haven't told Brian yet... its a Friday morning before work and I dont want to tell him before work... I want to do something cute tonight to tell him! I am sure I will be at work all day thinking of great ideas!!!!!!!

AHHHHHH is all I can say!