Bedding

I am been thinking about the baby room and the decor alot lately...

I definitely want to go more neutral. Brian and I plan to have more than one child of course, and I know I wont want to have to rebuy everything when we have a different gender. I figure the bedding and decor can be pretty neutral and it can get more gender appropriate when he/she grows to be a toddler and older.

I have been doing some online shopping... I hear its what alot of pregnant ladies do!... and I think I am singled down the theme to either stars and moons or under the sea.

Brian and I both really like the ocean decor from Target. I like how its bright and fun.... our house could use a little more color! ... I have always been a fan of fish and I loved Little Mermaid when I was younger! What do you think? ... now what color would we paint the room? And what color crib should we get? I am a fan of the white... but then I think a dark wood is nice and the dressed could grow easier with the child.... hmmmm. Please advice! And let me know if you find any other ocean decor anywhere!!

A story and pictures

So a quick story....


My mom was at work talking with a new teacher. This teacher is about the same age as my mom and also has a daughter that is 24. My mom brought up how she is going to be a grandparent. The new teacher responded with "Isn't it great she choose life? Is the father in the picture?" My mom responded with "She's Married!" .... haha. I guess Brian and I are just choosing to do things the old fashion way huh?


Now for pictures of my gorgeous little sister before Prom... and a few with me in them with my 12th week belly... it seems to really have come out of no where today. It was even poking out of my tshirt this morning!

can you see me taking the picture in the mirror? Do you see my belly?!

moving on

Moving on is hard! ... especially when every time we are home, all we can think about is how Bax is not here... I actually feel better almost at work....

We got out of the house tonight for a while... we headed to the driving range and went out to dinner... but then we came home.... and our sadness continued.

Its almost like time at home is going by so much slower... I was way early to work this morning, and this evening is dragging on... I guess its true what they say "Time flies when you are having fun"... well I guess we aren't having any fun without our kitty...

We need to keep ourselves busy... we need to start getting excited again for the baby. Maybe we can get more serious about cleaning out the junk room and making it a nursery...

Moving on is just hard...

Part of me wants to hurry up and get another pet to fill the wholes in our heart... but Baxter was such an AMAZING cat (I know everyone thinks that, but he really really was) that I feel like any pet we get I will just be comparing ... I guess we just have to let our hearts hurt for a while before we can try to love another furry friend.

:(

Last night, our almost 2 year old kitten, Baxter, had another seizure. He didn't survive this one though..... Brian and I are completely devastated.

Baxter was the most amazing cat! Neither of us could go to sleep last night because Baxter wasn't there with us in bed. We completely miss all of the little things he did.... He wont be waking us up at 4 am by playing with the lamp shades. I won't have to get out of bed and walk towards the door to lock him out so that we can sleep for the next few hours rather than play with him. He won't be sitting at the door as soon as I wake up waiting for me to 1. pet him, 2. feed him, and 3. pet him some more. Brian wont be playing with him in the bed before getting in the shower, and he wont be barging in on my showers anymore. He hated being locked out of anywhere. As soon as you closed a door on him he was trying to open in to get in. As we get ready in the morning for work, Baxter wont be sitting at the end of the hallway where he can keep an eye on me as well as Brian as the same time. We wont have to fight to keep him from going outside when we leave the house. Bax won't be waiting at the door for us when we come home from work. I will really miss the cuddle time we always had while we waited for Brian to come home. As soon as Brian walked in the door he knew it was play time. There won't be any more fighting him off of my dinner when I make fish, or playing with him in the evenings, or him sitting on my lap while watching tv. We truely miss all of the little things he did. He really made us happy and feel more like a family.

We took him to the vet this morning. It was one of the hardest things. It was hard to give him over to them and to never see him again. Brian and I went to get coffee afterwards. We sat outside the coffee shop and talked about how great he was. Maybe eventually we will get another pet... I do not look forward to going thru this again, but he definitely made our life a little more exciting.

Baxter was my first real pet and I am still completely shocked about how much I loved him. I really feel like I just lost a little piece of me. He was my baby.

You won't be forgotten Baxter! We love you!

starving

I am STARVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously cannot get full today. ... I am also addicted to Captain Crunch cereal.

It is 6:10, I have been home from work for about 20 minutes, and I have eaten 2 bowls already. I am currently fighting the urge to eat my 3rd! Brian is starting to BBQ dinner, but I now have no desire for a burger... I just want my crunchy, peanut buttery, goodness!!!!!!!!!!!!

I bought the Giant box Saturday afternoon... It is already 1/2 way gone. I already had to run to QT to buy more milk... we usually can't go thru milk quick enough. Neither of us are milk drinkers and I usually have to throw the milk away because it expires.

My pants officially do not fit and cannot button. Blame this on the baby... or maybe the cereal! I am currently sitting here watching the news. This weekend is going to reach the 80's. I just realized that I do not think I am any clothing for this warm weather that will fit me! ... My sister has Prom this weekend and a district art show... I guess I will be going to see her at these events in either addias shorts and a tshirt... or a dress.... ugg. I need to grow some more so I can atleast fit into maternity clothes. This in between size is no fun!

At the request of Stephanie, my fellow pregnant friend, I will put up another picture soon... maybe after this weekend where I can have my pretty sister all ready for prom with me!

yeah!!

Today is the first day I woke up without horrible morning sickness! Its so nice to wake up and not feel like I drank bottles of wine the night before!

I still have some slight morning sickness but this is 10 less than usually!

How nice!

oops

I think I officially have pregnancy brain...

Today I drove back from lunch, parked my car, opened the door, got out, sat my purse in my seat, and closed the door. Two seconds later as I am standing outside of my car, looking at my purse with my keys inside, I realized I was locked out!!! DARN IT!!

I went in to work carrying nothing... I told everyone of my stupidity. There comments were all the same. "Get used to it. I locked my keys in my car all the time when I was pregnant." I will blame it on the pregnancy too. This is only my 3rd time in my 8 years of driving of doing this.

Luckily I didn't have to call a locksmith and pay 75 dollars for being dumb. My friend Jeff at work has AAA and he called, said "my driver locked her keys in her car" and they came and got my keys out for free! (I bet you didnt know AAA works for whatever car the policyholder is traveling in... or atleast pretending too).

We will have to see what other dumb and senseless things I do in the next few months...

I love him!

Brian is already turning into an overprotective father and its super cute!

He often tells me to stop when I am poking at my stomach or sucking in the little bit that I can now. He thinks I am hurting the baby.

Last night he admitted to me too that the night before he woke up in the middle of the night and saw that I was sleeping on my stomach. He said he wanted to wake me up and make me roll over. Again he thought I was squishing our inch and a half long baby. hehe.

I love him!

Introducing....

OUR BABY!!

Here are our Ultrasound pictures. He/She is quite a little peanut huh?

Here is a zoomed in picture....

And here is a picture of the beginning of my 10th week. Can you see my little bump that is causing me such issues with my pants?

Ultrasound

The Ultrasound was great!! It really made things sink in! Also its official, I am only having 1 baby, for all of you who thought I was having twins!

Brian was of course there again. When the ultra sound first began, the nurse lady had to do all of the technical things first. It was cute to see Brian trying to wiggle in his chair so he could see everything going on the screen.

She told me I am 8 wks 5 days (6 days now today! ha!) and everything looks great! The baby and sack are exactly where we all thought he/she would be. The little one is still scheduled to be here Nov 15th.

The heart beat is 176 beats per minute. Hearing that was what made it really sink in. It was going so fast! It is really crazy to think that right now I have two hearts in me! I have someone inside of me that will come out eventually, we will watch grow up, and some day it will be my size and be an adult! It is so crazy to think about!

We got to watch the baby on the monitor for a while. Its mostly a blob.. with a big head, body, and little arms and legs sticking out. The strangest thing was that you could actually see the heart beating on him/her.

I also found out that although the baby is normal size for how far I am, my uterus seems to be much larger for my due date. This would be the reason why my pants are already so tight when Im only in my 9th week! I think my body just knows it will be a BIG baby and is preparing for its growth!

updating..

The doctor went great! ... or atleast as great as it could have gone! We didnt get our ultra sound (we are going back Friday at Noon) but I am still pregnant, definitely atleast 8 weeks, and its a great sign that I have been having such morning sickness. I was given a prescription too for some sort of medicine to calm my nausea which has definitely worked! I felt great this morning and it was wonderful!

I can't wait till Friday to see and hear our little one!!!! Luckily this week at work is going super fast so Friday will be here before I know it!

I told everyone at work too and its great to not have to hide how I am feeling and talk openly about how excited I am! Everyone is thrilled for me! Mary Jo is already starting on a baby blanket for me (she is like another grandmother) and my boss is thrilled for me. She hasn't even mentioned how I will be leaving and missing the final month of testing and implementation of our project we are working on.

I need to take another picture to see how I have grown.. Many of my dress pants now cannot button... I have about a inch gap. Its kind of ridiculous!

so sleepy..

Last night I went to bed at 10.

Woke up at 7 am.

I was up for a little bit...

and then I went back to bed until 10:45.

I could have slept ALL DAY!

Doctors appointment tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CAN'T WAIT!!

As long as it goes well, I will be telling my work tomorrow and everyone else! :)