An anxiety filled panic attack.
Its my typical pre-exam freakout.
Expect I am not preparing for an actuarial exam...
Just about to become a mom of 2.
Maybe its the nervousness beginning to set in.
Or nesting...
Because all I am feeling is "OMG I am not ready! I must clean the house and prepare!"
Except my body is so achy...
I am trying to combat this feeling with ice cream, writing, and soon a hot bath...
Lets hope the bath is followed by bed...
And not sudden energy and frantically cleaning the house at 10pm.
Maybe I need Brian to restrain me and just lock me in the bedroom.
I seriously am fighting a crazy internal battle right now....
Bath vs clean, bath vs clean, bath vs clean, bath vs clean...
I know if I start to clean it will be this horrible domino effect and I will be unable to stop.
Usually it results in Brian forcing me to stop and go to bed.
Right now it is taking everything to not get up and begin...
Why do I handle stress so ... strangely?
I do the same thing with stress. It'll be fine. You'll do great. At six months out, it is fine. Just keep that in mind when it is sucking in the first few weeks. Really, right now? I can totally handle being a mom of two.
ReplyDeleteHmmm.... I just started reading your blog, and you were 32 weeks. I swear that was yesterday. And here I sit, at 32 weeks.... good god, I'm next. I'm freaked out for you, and for myself, but know that in the end it will all be good.
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