But I need to do it again!
I worked from home today strictly for the plan to get a long run in.
Its 60+ degrees today.
In Mid January.
In St. Louis.
My first problem may have been the fact that I headed out around lunch time...
With only having ate a bowl of cereal & handful of almonds before I headed out the door...
Maybe if was the fact that this week was the first week back at boot camp after almost a month off with the holidays and my legs are SORE!
Or maybe it was because I am coming off another cold, which included major congestion the past few days and not taking any meds today...
But todays run was my worst run EVER!
Sure... 7 miles at a 10:14 min pace.
Thats better than the last time I ran 7+ miles.
But I walked alot!
Probably about a mile total.
Its really frustrating me as I officially begin my half marathon training Monday.
This run actually fits in with my training plan as I am supposed to run most of my runs at a minute slower than my expected half pace...
Which means around 10 minutes...
But it does not make me feel better.
I hate that I walked.
I hate that I struggled.
It makes me question all my future runs.
When I have to go further.
I have a problem where I cant just do something...
I have to do it awesomely!
I always set the bar too high.
In the locker room after boot camp yesterday I was chatting with a girl.
A girl who has lost tons of weight.
But it still bigger & less athletic than myself.
It came up that I am running my first half marathon.
She responded with "Oh you will love it! I did my first last year! Its alot of fun."
Awesome for her...
But all I thought was "I am not running it for fun! I am running it because I want an awesome time!"
It got me thinking...
Yes, I am loving running.
But I am not running for the "I went 13.1 miles... thats alot, and I am darn proud" feeling.
I am running because "I ran 13.1 miles fast! In the time I set a goal for."
But after today's run, maybe I need to try to get back to just running it for fun...
Finding happiness in the run rather than the time.