For the past week I have started to have issues sleeping... I wake up in the middle of the night and just cannot fall back to sleep....
Then last night the true aniexty hit....
I started to feel ovewhelmed... and it didnt really occur to me until we were trying to settle down to watch a movie when I realized I HAD TO CLEAN THE HOUSE!
My heart started beating FAST, I felt like I could hurl, I just felt like I HAD to clean, and I was taking my frustrations out on Brian.
Poor Brian... I do this every time... but usually its days before, not weeks before....
I dont know why a dirty house is what "turns it on" but all of a sudden I just look around and I just see everything out of place, everything is unorganized, and I just have to get in under control!
I suggested to Brian that maybe he should help me keep the house spotless for the next few weeks, and then maybe I can keep myself under control....
13 more days.
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